There are
few things more comforting and invigorating than the realization of first
love. And yet, come to reason, there are
fewer things more amusing and deluding than the same. Of course there is the
utterly mystifying and truly humbling magnanimity of the universe. But for a
mind privileged (or doomed?) with inquiry, everything must conform to a predictable
pattern or behavior. When everything has a reason, randomness is abhorred as an
anomaly. Even the grand dance of the cosmos- however confounding it may seem-
is intricately woven together by understandable tenets of reason that we have
learned, unlearned and relearned over centuries. So how can something as overt
as love, be so covert? The mind rebels at the thought!
So I decided
to submit it to reason. Drawing a lot from observation, a vast testable sample
space of friends near and far, a bit of scientific temperament that I’ve
managed to brush onto myself over the years and a fair share of experience, I
thought one could try to unmask this facet of human nature. I was wary of
misplaced arrogance or a sense of false accomplishment that has often been an
impediment to curiosity. Hence, instead of allowing myself the enormous luxury
of twisting facts to suit theories, I decided to twist theories to suit facts. I
don’t claim to have stumbled onto a Theory
of Everything of sorts, but as is so often the case with intellectual
pursuit, the journey in itself was more rewarding than the outcome.
Although it
took me the greater part of the past few years to complete this journey, it all culminated in a moment,
an epiphany of sorts wherein I realized that there in fact can be a method to
this apparent madness. That as unfair, hurtful, instinctive, fateful or arbitrary
as it may seem, there is nothing more to love than a barely remarkable sequence
of cause and effect. Let’s call it The
Great Game...
(to
be continued with The Anatomy of Attraction)
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